Inamin ng model-actress na si Maureen Wroblewitz na may pinagdaraanan siyang struggle sa kanyang mental health.
Matagal na niyang pinaglalabanan ito at umabot pa umano siya noon sa puntong gusto na niyang magpatiwakal.
Inilahad niya ito sa kanyang Facebook at Instagram posts kamakailan kalakip ang ilang larawan niya noong kanyang kabataan.
Ayon kay Maureen, sumagi noon sa isip niya na kitilin na ang sarili niyang buhay pero naagapan daw ’yon ng nakababata niyang kapatid.
“This girl that you see smiling and posing in front of the camera was thinking of all the easiest ways to end her life just a few months prior,” pag-o-open n’ya sa kanyang social media posts.
“If it wasn’t for her little sister finding her in a vulnerable situation and telling her parents about it, I don’t know if I would be here today,” lahad niya.
Nawalan aniya siya ng kumpiyansa sa sarili magmula nang pumanaw ang kanilang nanay at dumanas ng mga hirap sa buhay.
“After losing my Mom at the age of 11 and experiencing more of life’s difficulties soon after, I had slowly started losing faith in myself,” pagbabalik-tanaw ng aktres.
Mas pinili rin niya noon na solohin ang kanyang nararamdaman dahil ayaw umano niya mandamay pa ng ibang tao sa kanyang pinagdadaanan.
“I was fighting my inner demons alone because I chose to suffer in silence. I didn’t want to burden anyone with my problems but I also was too ashamed of them,” pag-amin niya.
“I knew something was wrong but I wanted to hide that for as long as I could. It wasn’t until one blurry night and suddenly I was exposed.”
Dahil sa nangyari, minabuti ng magulang niya na isailalim siya sa therapy.
“My parents suggested I start seeing a therapist and after completing a few sessions, my Dad gifted me a book. ‘Life Without Limits’ by Nick Vujicic. That is what ultimately inspired me to change my outlook on life,” paglalahad ni Maureen.
Ayon pa sa kanya, nakatulong ng malaki ang nasabing libro dahil iyon daw ng nag-inspire sa kanya para mangarap nang mataas.
“Nick’s story had made me realize that at just 13, I hadn’t even seen the world yet. I didn’t know what was yet to happen, and I thought ‘What if I do become someone in this lifetime?’ ‘What if I get to inspire people with my story?’ ‘What if I’m meant for something bigger?’” tanong umano niya sarili that time.
“From then on I knew I had to make my dreams a reality, I knew I couldn’t hide in my darkness forever. I was convinced that telling my story was my purpose and that I had to work so hard so I could become someone that I’m proud of,” dagdag niya.
Iyon aniya ang naging simula ng katuparan ng kanyang mga pangarap na nagmula sa pagba-vlog about fashion and her life hanggang sa maging celebrity s’ya dito sa Pilipinas.
Kung matatandaan, siya ang itinanghal na Asia’s Next Top Model Season 5 winner noong 2017.
“Just that change of mindset opened a lot of doors for me. I started my fashion blog a few months later and even though I kept it a secret from people in my school out of fear of being judged, I shared about my life and my love for fashion,” pagre-recall ni Maureen.
“A year later I got discovered by my now momager on Instagram and 3 years after that, I was living my dreams in the Philippines.”
Matagal na umano n’yang gustong isiwalat ang kanyang pinagdadaanan at ngayon daw ay natutunan na raw n’ya kung paano ito gawin.
“I have always wanted to share more about my mental health struggles but I never knew how. I now understand that the best way is to just do it, to speak my truth and people will listen,” anang Filipino-German model-actress.
“I believe that even if I get to help just one person by sharing my story, I have done something right,” dagdag niya.
Sa ngayon, nakikipaglaban pa rin umano s’ya sa depression pero mas malakas na raw ang loob n’ya na harapin ito dahil sa kanyang support system.
(pikapika.ph)
